Well Mat here again. Kim has taken control of her destiny as usual and things are moving much faster than we expected. She stopped chemo and flipped the switch apparently to the next thing.
..when "strong" is the only choice I have..
A raw, honest account of how I choose to live with stage 4 breast cancer
Thursday, December 28, 2023
Final
Tuesday, December 26, 2023
Update from Mat
Okay this is Mat here, commandeering Kim's Blog updates to give you all an update as she really hasn't been up to it the last little while.
Thursday, December 7, 2023
Activities
I'm so far behind, I should just start with more recent stuff. Mat and I have been looking for an activity every week, to keep us (me) busy and engaged in the day to day. This month we went to Audra McDonald, the Messiah sing-In, out to lunch with a handful of friends, had a chat with Dr. Buys about what I want treatment I want to look like going forward. At our last group, she came up and asked me what color my urine was (we're big kids, we can handle that word, right?). I'll tell you, anywhere from clear to dark yellow-brown to orange. All I know is that orange (and other strange colors mean my liver is failing.) So, that also means that if you want to "see" me, better come quick! There won't be viewing, I don't want people to see at my shriveled, most sickly state.
Saturday, November 25, 2023
Every once in a while a friend turns up in the most unexpected places and times. For Olivia and me it was first in our home ward, where I was obviously the superior one being 3 years older and wiser than her. But it really came together as young married people where we ended in a different “same” ward situation in Bountiful! We had boys that were about the same age. We started making lunches with each other when new ones came up that we wanted to try out. One day on her way out the front door, she exclaimed “I think we should be friends!” though I think that had already been predetermined by me.
Saturday, November 11, 2023
Chemo Skip
So, today I skipped chemo. My body needs more than a week to recover from the side effects of Taxol. So I took it!!!
Friday, October 20, 2023
All the Feels
I wish I could think about nothing. I'd love to go to some remote place and sit in silence for hours at a time-and it can't be my bed. I hardly ever wear a hat, what's the point when I'm this many years into cancer? BTW, 6 ¼ years. I just need to go as long as July next year for our 30th anniversary.
Friday, October 13, 2023
Amazing Friends!
Might as well do a post, despite it being almost 2 am! I have chemo tomorrow, but Mat is my driver, so it’s fine.
Monday, October 9, 2023
A Funny Thing Happened...
A funny thing happened while I was out dropping off a few things tonight. I had been at my friend, Sarahs, then went south on Legacy parkway because my next drop to my sister in NSL. I realized real quick that I pulled in from Hwy 89 to Legacy right behind my sister, who had been in Morgan with family. I know their car and that she would be driving, not Michael. I knew it was them. So I carefully tried to get their attention, to no avail. They turned into their neighborhood, but turned up by Wasatch Peak and pulled over on the side of the road. So I pulled up next to them and unrolled my window--then she saw who I was! She said her next stop was going to be at the police station, but it didn't get that far. So I followed them the rest of the way to their house. Funny: I recognized them immediately, in their car, but my shiny head and the gray Honda Pilot I've driven for years didn't clue her in. I told her she was going a bit too fast on Redwood Road, but I'd let it slide this time. When she said I should come back in visit again, I said "You gotta make it a little easier on me next time!"
Saturday, September 30, 2023
Best News Ever!
I just saw the tumor marker result from today’s bloodwork. 425!!! Down 335 from last month’s 755. That means Taxol is working to shrink those dang tumors! That doesn’t mean I’m out of the woods yet but it’s great news!
Monday, September 25, 2023
Cali!!
Mat and I are in Cali while Brooklyn and McK hold down the fort. I think they are so silly for wanting to stay home because we have a great time! They’re missing out! We’re at my favorite beach north of San Luis Obispo. We were here two years ago, the beach has changed with all the water/flooding they’ve had. We’ve had some funny conversations because we don’t remember things the same way! The beach has totally changed appearance, the terrain, the rock piles, and the spot where I spent hours sifting through the rocks to find the perfect ones, is underwater now. But there are still a gazillion rocks to be explored. That’s tomorrow’s project. This “lake” that’s now sand/land locked wasn’t there two years ago.