Today's Blessings

I had the good fortune to talk to a great friend last night.  We met a few years ago when our stake was being reorganized.  The ward I loved with all my heart was being dissolved and we ended up in the 1st ward.  Karen was called to be RS Pres. at that time, and the size of her heart and love for everyone was immediately evident.  Whenever I see her, at stake meetings, or in the grocery store, I always get a hug from her.  I called her last night to thank her for her love, concern and support.  We talked for 40 minutes and she helped me to realize what my real concerns are.  Yes, I am afraid, not so much of the surgery, but of the treatment that comes after.  At this point, I have no details about the duration, frequency, or strength of the chemo.  But I have been told that because of my age and circumstances, they will be aggressive.  My concern is not so much for me, because I know I can handle it.  My concern is for the kids, especially the baby.  I can't talk to her and explain what is going on.  I can't explain why I am too sick to hold her and love her.  I can't just turn on a video to pass the time.  Her needs are constant and her naps too short!  I know that things will work out, that we will have an army of helpers as we work our way through all of that.  Thanks Karen!  (more later)