Saturday, January 30, 2010

occasional hysteria followed by rational thoughts

Hi!  I've had a pretty good day today.  We had a stake women's conference this morning, it was AWESOME!  Sister Oaks was the keynote speaker, then we had break out sessions on a variety of topics.  And lunch was fantastic!  Thanks to everyone that helped to put it together!  I'm glad I went.  We've been in the stake long enough that we know people from a lot of wards, so it is also quite fun to see old friends and catch up with them.

I went to distribution today and bought a new temple dress.  I've had mine since 1991, so it's time to move on!  I got a skirt with a blouse, I feel so "hip" now (if that's possible for temple clothes!).  I've been thinking about replacing my dress for a long time, so it feels good to finally get it done.  : )  I asked Holly last week if she would crochet me a white temple hat, which she did.  I'm so grateful to have talented friends who are so willing to help out with stuff I never had the patience to learn!  Thanks Holly!  The Young Women are coming over on Tuesday night to tend so Mat and I can go out to eat and go to the temple.  AWESOME!

We went to the gym tonight, I did about 4 miles on the treadmill.  It feels really good to be back into the groove!  I was going to do weights tonight, but Extreme Makeover Home Edition was on, so I had to watch that.  I'll do weights on Monday.  Mat came and ran the track with the baby, and the other kids went swimming.  It worked out great for everyone!

Every once in a while, the last few days, I begin to feel overwhelmed when I think about doing chemo on Monday.  I don't know what it's going to do to me, ya . . . so?  I decided it was really stupid to worry about something I can't change and have no control over and isn't even an issue yet.  : )   See, I'm learning.  I think, if I'm brave enough, I will shave my head on Monday night.  I'm sure I've said this already, but I'm shaving it before it starts to fall out so I can donate it to Locks of Love.  And besides, it is the one thing I can control, when and how my hair comes off.  I'll pull it into ponytails all over my head and then let the kids go at them with scissors.  And then the buzzers come out!  It should be a good time, if I'm brave enough.  : )

3 comments:

kimM said...

You are such a great example about having a good perspective and I have enjoyed reading your story. My thoughts are with you and I am anxious to read about your recovery.
Kim Meikle

Gretchen said...

You know Kim, when I told my mom I had reconnected with you, she said, "She's your companion with the red hair, right?" You have beautiful hair, but shaving it off for Locks of Love is a wonderful idea. It will grow back. And it might be really fun to have more time to focus on stuff other than doing your hair! Whatever you decide to do, it'll be right for you! Hugs!

Kim said...

Kim! So glad you found me! Thank you for following what is going on, we are sure grateful for everyone out there that is helping us through this! You're the best!

Gretchen, I can't believe your mom would remember me. I must have had a reputation? I'm nervous about shaving it off, but also know this is the one thing I have control of, so it will come of on my terms! As I've been thinking about it, there are quite a few benefits to having no hair. : )Thanks for keeping up on what's happening. Love you!