Covid AND Chemo Fatigue

Remember them?

I don't know about you, but I'm already so burned out on this virus stuff.  It overwhelms me to hear about it constantly in the media.  Having EVERYTHING canceled depresses me.  It blows my mind that people will wait in lines for 90 minutes or more so they can pay for the stuff in their overflowing carts.   How could getting the "stuff" be worth that kind of wait?!?  I'm running out of time, folks.  I've got NO patience for it.  It's been a hard week, feeling like everything I need to keep me going was canceled.  I can't imagine what the next two weeks will be like with no church to go to, no atonement class, no support groups, etc.  I keep thinking of places I can take the kids.  Then I remember, everything is closed.  Can't wait to be on the other side of corona!

Speaking of running out of time, I saw Dr. Buys today.  It was great to finally see her.  She's always so complimentary, upbeat and positive.  She asked me about the kids and their ages.  When I told her McK was 10, she said "Well let's see you through to her graduation!" That would be amazing!

She explained so well about what my two spots could be. First, those spots could be is broken bones that are healing.  Again, they can't confirm it or rule it out.  I can't imagine what I could have done to break ribs this high in my back, I certainly have no memory of an injury.  I'm not exactly a dare devil, quite the opposite!  I've been quite the wimp since I learned my bones are brittle.

They could be cancer, but, again, they aren't big enough to confirm it or rule it out.  I went back on my medical records and looked at the results on previous chest CT scans.  The 4th rib has been mentioned before.  My best guess is that the spots are cancer because broken bones just don't make sense.

I'm getting a bone scan next Wednesday.  That will give us a better look at what those spots might be.  I'm pretty sure there won't be any surprises (as far as additional spots).  I did one just after my diagnosis two years ago, so it's time to revisit that.  My treatment plan isn't changing at all, still an infusion every three weeks, study drug on 4 week cycles, hormone shots every month.  I'm not going to lie.  Sometimes I get tired of being tired, but my amazing team at Huntsman is keeping me alive, with a lot of hand sanitizer, encouragement, love and support along the way.