Camping, but not in the Bahamas

I've been feeling the stress of this week build for the last couple of weeks.  I knew this was the week for my regular CT scan and follow up bone scan.  I knew that another month has passed with all of the support services at Huntsman cancelled, with no end in sight. I knew that, even though Mat wants to come with me to talk to my doctor on Friday, he can't. We may try to FaceTime him in while he sits in the car. I hate that I have to carry my cancer largely by myself. We have a Zoom support group every few weeks, which I feel is about 30% effective for me, compared to sitting in the same room with my warriors, face to face.  I know Lisa is doing the best she can under the circumstances!  I saw my acupuncturist on the way to my EEG today.  It was SO GREAT to see her! I can't wait to get back to it.  She'll have her work cut out for her-I'm kind of a mess!

I sent an email yesterday to the social worker that runs our group.  I asked her if it was OK to organize my own little gathering, friends meeting at a park somewhere with sack lunches, so we can see each other and talk.  No one at Huntsman can be involved with coordinating or attending a meeting outside the hospital.  But I'm willing to take it on if everyone up there is onboard! I don't want to burn any bridges with the people who are keeping me alive!

I saw my across-the-street neighbor tonight for the first time since she had her baby girl.  She's beautiful, even from an appropriate distance! I thought I was doing a good job of camouflaging the "overwhelm" I feel everyday. I wasn't. I've had a really hard time since my last scans. I knew as time went on, the honeymoon (no evidence of disease) would end and cancer would spread. It's very common for breast cancer to end up in the bones.

I get my therapy in the yard. I can't believe that we have mostly completed everything in the yard that needs to be done, before Mat would normally be done with school! The last thing to do is prep for the 6 foot solid fence that should be coming any day? Next week?  I want to hang a porch swing from our deck, and get a rope swing or two in our giant maple tree.

We got the garden box planted kind of late, but things are starting to take off.  McKinley really wanted to have a place to plant food in the yard. The fence will keep the dogs out - they love soft dirt and pulling (and eating) sticks from the wood pile. Mat ran drip lines to the garden bed and the bed along the back fence. We have tomatoes, potatoes, basil, chives, zucchini, yellow squash and green beans. I put oregano and rosemary in pots.  See the overgrown fence in the background? That's next years project. The neighborhood rats will have to find somewhere else to live!

We have 3 camping trips planned for summer so far, at Bryce Canyon, Zion, and the Spruces.  In August me and Maddie are going on a short cruise to the Bahamas. I'm not gonna lie, there's a fair amount of stress related to that too! Hurricanes, quarantines, motion sickness, airplanes? Please tell me we'll get there, have a blast, and then get home again without any problems!

I'll get the results of the CT scan tomorrow, and the bone scan on Friday.  I may do a brief update tomorrow, or maybe wait until Friday when I have all the information? Not sure.