2020 - the year that lasted 10

When I think back to the beginning of this year, it seems like it was so long ago.  It seems impossible that it was a short 10 months ago when the world turned upside down, all at once!  I've struggled with isolation, online school, the cancellation of everything I felt I needed to stay sane, church, mingling, seeing friends who live "way up" on the other side of the ward, seeing friends in general, depression and anxiety, fear, paranoia, a TP shortage, election drama - throw in an earthquake and hurricane force winds for good measure.  Did I remember everything?  Geez.  I've been a bit obsessive this year about buying TP and hand sanitizer. When I found gallon sized hand sanitizer at Costco for 10 bucks, I decided I'm probably good for now!

I don't know who took this picture, but its a beauty!

In September I passed my 3 year anniversary of stage 4 diagnosis. Three years?!?  How is it possible.  It's been so hard, there have been many sleepless nights and buckets of tears shed.  On a night recently as I pity partied, I had a thought come into my mind that was, "Focus on living, Kim ... not dying." I was grateful to hear those words in that moment when I needed remember that having FAITH in my God, will drive away the fear of the unknown.  I have faith in my doctors and the teams of people at Huntsman that work everyday to do the very best they know to help us get through all aspects of the cancer experience. 

Good things have come out of cancer too.  Perspectives and priorities change, people come into your life that you desperately needed, my focus has changed to the people I love - there are a lot of you out there!  I'm so grateful for my people, my kids and Mat, and countless friends out there who have helped me in so many ways. 

As Christmas approaches, I want to spend more time playing Christmas songs really loud while I belt out the lyrics.  I want to get a few things organized, a few projects finished, a few people called.  We look forward with hope for the future.  We are blessed beyond measure.  Thank you for keeping tabs on us!  We love you!