The last few days have been filled with introspection, lots of questions and answers, and great amounts of gratitude for my team at Huntsman. Last night after I finished the blog post in the wee hours of the morning, I had an overwhelming feeling of peace and clarity. I felt in that moment that the right thing to do is forget about the study and just start Kadcyla ASAP. I had already scheduled an appointment with Annie (social worker) for today, so it was perfect as far as processing all my emotions. I read a paragraph or two from yesterdays blog to her, because for me to try to regurgitate those thoughts and feelings are impossible.
When I told her I had decided to drop the study, and recounted what happened last night, it was almost as if an invisible, silent lightening bolt came through the room. We realized at the same time that the moment of clarity and help with my decision was my Mom-without a doubt.
I'm almost at a loss for words-imagine it! Me! At a loss for words! But that was an amazing experience that came, again perfectly orchestrated, because Heavenly Father knows what's going on with me, he knows what I need (already having had an appointment set with Annie) and will provide in the most perfect way.
Love you guys! Thanks for sticking with me even when I'm cranky! I feel a lot better today. 💙
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