unbelievable

We are in shock today!  Yesterday, November 20, 2009, I went in for a mammogram because I found a lump the end of October.  Honestly, I didn't think much of it, despite having a sister who had a double mastectomy less than one year ago.  When the radiologist saw it, he recommended we let him do a biopsy.  We won't know until Tuesday what we're dealing with, but he said from what he can see, the lump has the characteristics of breast cancer.

REALLY?!?  I'm only 39!  This stuff doesn't happen until you're in your 50's, like my sister.  We are in shock.  I go from complete numbness to complete hysteria.  I am feeling profound sadness!  How will my 4 kids understand this?  My older kids might get it, but my younger kids, ages 5 and 5 months?  Do they really need to go through this?  I am so grateful for Mat, I couldn't ask for better person to stand by my side through all of this.

I'm not sure yet what we are in for.  I am a FIGHTER and you'd better believe I'll see my baby get married and have her own babies.  I started this blog so I have a place where I can share our successes and frustrations, along with everything else that comes along.  Please remember us in your prayers, I have a feeling we're in for a wild ride!