This is what a dear friend said to me after the last blog post: God is full of miracles! That's what I think. Man can give you a guess of time (left) ... but it's really up to God! That's where we place our faith, and he knows you and loves you! He has a plan for your life! It is not just a random, whatever happens happens deal. You are His precious child and He has a specific plan and purpose for your life. You will not go until you have fulfilled your special purpose ... and He calls you home!
This is exactly what I needed to hear, because as much as I want to be in charge of this disease and my life, I'm not. It will take time to get this idea ingrained in my head and spirit, and I'll have to remind myself again and again and again. It will take time to understand cancer's purpose. It will take time to accept the plan God has for me, because this isn't what I planned for my life.
I want to get back to feeling "normal", when I can return to work and run my business like I always have. I want the energy to get through the day without sleeping half of it away. I want to somehow put cancer on the back burner in my head, so I can be truly happy, engaged and involved with the people and events around me. I put on a good show, friends. It's easy to let stress and worry overtake and overwhelm me. So, I will work on remembering the inspired words shared with me by my friend.
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