My Quarterly Panic Attack

I've held myself together pretty well this week, knowing that I wouldn't get results of yesterdays CT scan until today.  I worked at the nursery today and found myself pacing the isles, desperately  needing information!  Any oncologist knows that her patients are anxious and don't want to wait too long for results, I knew I'd be on her list today.  And I was.  But I couldn't stand it and only made it until 11:00 before I called my nurse Kathy.  She gets the anxiety too, both are always kind and patient with my phone calls.  Kathy always says that it's OK to "come away from the edge of the cliff" now.

The results are great, in a baby steps sort of way.  There's a "Slight decrease in size of metastatic lesions within the liver" From 2.2 cm by 1.5 cm to 1.8 cm by 1.4 cm.  I care less about the measurements, and more about the numbers going down.  The chemo is working!  I'm so relieved and happy with the news.  The AST and ALT (liver function) numbers are back in the normal range too.  And there doesn't appear to be any new spots.  So, yippee!!!

Dr. Prystas commented today on how much better I sound.  I guess I didn't realize I was that much off my normal, but the farther I get from the hard core chemo, the better I feel.  I get through most days without a nap (but I'm happy to use fatigue as a reason to veg out when I need to!).  I have the energy to get through my shifts at the nursery, and do some landscaping on the side.  If I had hair, you'd never think I had cancer.

I'm GRATEFUL for todays news!  My heartfelt thanks to everyone who has helped us get to this point.  The rides, the food, the talking and processing, the mint brownies ...  Seriously, we've been richly blessed!  Next thing on the agenda is planning our Epic Summer Road Trip!