Rainbows Come AFTER the Storm

So, I've had my freak out moments the last couple of days.  I thought I was past that, but those moments keep coming!  I have never been in a position before where I needed so much help from other people.  It's really hard to "focus on me" and allow others to take over all the things I do for my family.  I'm really grateful for all of you, though, because you have strengthened me (and my family) so much through all of this!!!

I got a sweet e-mail from my old friend Tricia today.  I asked her if it was OK that I publish it here.  You'll know why after you read it.  She said:

"I just wanted to tell you about a dream I had last night . . .   I dreamed you were coming to the hospital for your surgery and walked into this huge auditorium, where there were THOUSANDS of people waiting for you. This huge auditorium was completely full. I was on the stage with a large group of people waiting for you also. You walked in and EVERYONE stood up and gave you a standing ovation. Every single person was wearing a pink ribbon for YOU. We clapped and clapped and clapped for you and your courage! Then we all sang a song for you and you were so amazed that so many people were "there for you." I forgot to tell you that when you came in, you were READY to take this thing on! You are a fighter and nothing was going to stop you!!"

When I've said that I am completely overwhelmed by all the love and support I've received, THAT is what it feels like, like I'm in the middle of a huge auditorium with thousands of people cheering and clapping and singing.  THAT is what your prayers have done for me.  THAT is why I feel so blessed.  THAT is why this will only be a bump in my road, and not the definition of who I am.  I have people all over the world praying for me.  You can't imagine until you go through your own trial what that feels like.  This "thing" in me has made me a better person, it has totally changed my perspective on life.  I intend, when this is all said and done, to pay it forward.  I will be more aware of the needs of others, I will be more willing to help and pray and tend and cook and hug and feel your pain.  I love you all!

I have to THANK Kari for coming (again) and spending hours at my house helping me get organized, hang pictures, etc.  She was a huge help to me yesterday.  Mom went out and got our lunch so we wouldn't have to stop working.  Also to Mel, Heather and Chris who took some time this week to take pictures of me and Mat.  THANKS!  You're the greatest!