A Better Day

I'm beginning to see a pattern, shall we call it a rollercoaster?  Some days (yesterday, among others) are terrible, and others (like today) I feel upbeat, despite the incisions, pain, pills and fever!  I got to leave the house TWICE today!  Today is the first time I've been out of the house since the surgery and it felt terrific.

I have a good friend who is a therapist and I emailed her last night about yesterday's struggles.  She fit me in today and we had a great talk about focusing on faith, not fear and being grateful for my trials (among other things).  I felt so much better after I talked to her and resolved to be more patient and accepting of what is going on right now.  I didn't choose it, this is far from how I pictured ending 2009, but many blessings have come to us because of it.  When Mat came to pick me up, he had the baby and Brooklyn in the car.  I said, "She's so awesome!  She said 'even in this you can choose to focus on either fear or faith'."  Brooklyn said "I know what you are going to choose."  I said, "what?".  She said.  "Faith."  : )  She is a sweetheart, as you can see.  Thanks for your insights (you know who you are)!

After I got home, Esther and Beck came over for a visit.  They asked if I was up to going out again, ya!  So we went over to Neilsons Custard and shared some onion rings and talked for an hour.  It was awesome and we laughed a lot (which is getting easier for me, sneezing is now my biggest problem).  I'm proud of Beck, she's getting baptized in February.  It has been a long road for her and I'm really excited to go and support her in that!

I go for a check-up with the plastic surgeon tomorrow.  I'm praying that the drainage is low enough that I can have the drains (I have 3) removed.  I hear that's not very fun, but I'd rather have them "out" than "in" so I'll put up with a little additional pain.