Stupid Cancer.

It's been a rough weekend.  The last two nights in a row I haven't been able to sleep, like it's after 3 a.m. and I'm still not sleeping.  Yesterday I was OK, because I can function on one sleepless night.  Today?  Not so much.  I don't know how to get that turned around.  Last night, I took every drug and supplement I have at my disposal, starting at midnight.  Still, no sleep.  The longer I don't sleep, the more anxious I get about not sleeping, and then sleep is impossible.  #cancersucks!

Since I didn't wake up until after 12:00 today (and that was only because Mat woke me up!), I didn't make it to church today.  I was hysterical about the whole not-sleeping thing and just couldn't pull myself together.  I did get to see my beautiful cousin Jennifer though!  We're actually second cousins.  Her Mom is my cousin, but we were born three months apart.  So we're cousins. :)  Her grandma is my dad's sister.  We had a blast talking about "scandalous" family secrets.  We have a very colorful background!  It was fun to talk to her about what she remembered and what I remembered about our mutual, long gone, family members.  I was SO grateful to have some distraction today.  We stopped by Jon and Jeanette's, my little bro and his wife.  Jen calls him "Johnny." That's what her family always called him when we were small people.

Now I'm home, and it's dark outside.  I have to face going to bed and trying to sleep.  I've already taken all my nausea meds that make me sleepy.  I'm tired.  Exhausted.  But will it be enough to actually fall asleep?!  Friends, please pray for me tonight.  I desperately need a good nights sleep.