3 more to the next scan

I've had a good weekend for the most part.  I didn't start getting nauseated until the middle of church, so I took a pill--I always have my drugs with me!  In RS, I sat next to a dear friend who I look up to a lot.  Sometimes it's a struggle for people to know what to say to me, but she said it more perfectly than I could have.  (I'm paraphrasing because ... chemo brain!)  "Why can't stuff like this happen to people like me??  I've lived a full life and this would be OK for me, but it's not OK for you!"  Amen to that.  I look at older couples in our neighborhood and envy them.  That's how I always pictured me and Mat.  All I ever considered was that we would be just like them.  I want to be around forever, and not miss a single family event, EVER!  So, my new reality really sucks.  And I've got to come to terms with it.  I will, in time.

Tonight Mat posted this on FB:

Someone told me last week that they would rather be the sick one instead of the caretaker. I've been thinking about that a lot this week, as I monitor my stress levels and attitude at home and at work. I have to admit there has be a Lot of tv/iphone escapism lately...

But I do get some real joy at seeing her get through the weekend with flying colors after a treatment, and seeing her take on a new project like her christmas tree class, and going out with her to buy a tent camper!!!  Can't wait for the summer vacation plans.

We did do a crazy thing and buy a tent trailer yesterday.  We had some of the money saved in our "vacation savings account", money saved on top of our "medical savings account."  Mat said I got through the weekend with flying colors, but I was feeling a tad bit sorry for myself and suggested we go to the trailer place.  One of my most prized possessions right now is having some time to make memories with my family.  July 2018 will be spent on the road, driving as far east as Boston, by way of Mount Rushmore, along the great lakes, Niagara Falls, Hill Cumorah pageant, Boston, Rhoade Island (McKinley said we had to go there because of that one Studio C skit) NYC, Phillie, Washington DC, and then pick a route back to the west, camping in KOA's all along the way.  I went to one and picked up the national directory of campgrounds, so we're in good shape!


We've talked about this trip for years, we always said we'd do it before Maddie graduated.  She'll be 20 this month, so it's high time we get it taken care of . . . especially NOW.  Right before my re-diagnosis, we went to Barnes and Noble and bought a giant map of the U.S., and we've been putting pins in places we want to go for sure.  It's so good for all of us to have something "big" to look forward to!