Chemo Brain!

Tonight McK has been reminding me to call the school to see if I still have a background check on file.  She has a field trip next month, and desperately wants me to come!  After about the 6th time, I reminded her that I can't call until tomorrow when someone is there!  She said, "But Mom!  You always forget stuff!"  That I do.  Chemo brain.  It was a stark reminder of one of the more subtle side effects I deal with.  Sometimes I feel a little unreliable, most of the time I can fake my forgetfulness, but my kids pick up on it!  😞

I've had a good week this week.  Saturday night we got together with Mat's family to remember his Mom who died 5 years ago on St. Paddy's day.  It was really nice to sit around and talk about special memories of her.  Mat's dad is perplexed about why he's still around, and wants nothing more than to go be with her!  He turns 85 in July, his mother was 93 (?) when she died.  I think he has the longevity genes, because other than a very painful back, he's in pretty decent health.

Sunday I actually made it to church on time and stayed the whole block.  Nine o'clock church isn't my favorite, especially now that sleeping is difficult.  The two infusion drugs both have insomnia as a side effect, it takes me a long time to shut down and get to sleep.  I've been a little inconsistent getting there on time this year!

I worked at the nursery today and made it through my entire 5 hour shift, first time this season!  I was pretty hammered when I got home and haven't done anything since,  but hey!  I'm feeling a little closer to normal, I just don't look normal.  Oh how I want my hair back!  My oncologist said I could do micro-bladed eyebrows if the ink didn't have metal in it.  Metal in it??  Apparently that's a thing.  They don't want anything injected into my skin that could mess up CT scans or MRI's in the future.  Now I just need to find the $$$.

Yesterday my friend Sharla called and said she would be in the neighborhood and wanted to go to lunch.  I'll always go to lunch with anyone that's willing!  We went to Plates and Palates and talked for a long time about stuff, and then came and sat in my driveway and talked about more stuff.  She's a great friend!  Thanks Sharla!

Last night the family went to the Rec Center.  You know when you pay for a membership but you only get there a couple times a month?!  The kids and Mat played racquetball, I lifted weights.  Just like I used to.  And did better than I expected!  I've spent most of the last 5 or 6 months sitting or sleeping and my muscles are mushy.  I was proud of what I was able to do and hope to get there more consistently and build up what I've lost.


I'm having a dilemma about Facebook.  I hate it!  I hate that they control what I see, and I only see a small portion of what my friends are posting.  And a whole lot of stuff I didn't ask to see.  It's such a waste of time.  Does anyone else feel this way??  I'd love to delete my account.  I'd rather connect with people than a profile.  How would I keep people updated on what's going on?  Would y'all think to just check the blog without me posting on my profile that it's been updated??  Because I REALLY hate Facebook.  Feedback please!  Because I really want to delete both my social media accounts.  I think I'll delete Instagram right now!