Slacker!

I'm sitting here in the wee hours of the morning NOT sleeping. We've had so much going on, a glorious week in Sedona AZ with some of the greatest strangers who became amazing friends.  I do intend to share information and pictures from the trip, but tonight my mind is overwhelmed with one (OK, two) things.  I'm not sure I'm ready to get into one topic quite yet.  NO, we aren't getting divorced.  I just need to process through said topic and get it right in my head before it's out there for the whole world to see.

We're working on getting the condo ready to sell, and we're getting closer but it still takes so long to get all those little projects done.  I don't know where we'll go when we sell, we just about can't keep up with the market in our neighborhood that we love.  We've reminded ourselves over what should never have happened--selling the house we loved at a time when things were finally looking up for us financially.  And then ... Riverton kinda derailed the good stuff we had going for us.  More hours, much lower pay, kids running amuck. . . . ENOUGH OF THAT!  We needed to move back to Bountiful, and I haven't wanted to consider living anywhere but right where we are.  These are my people! My family! And I want to be close to them.  More on that later!

My real intent in writing tonight is just to vent a little bit.  The nerve itching in my skin seems to be affecting me more and more.  Itching is a side effect of my chemo, Herceptin and Perjeta. It's the worst in my neck, shoulders and left arm.  I started taking Gabapentin twice a day because it's supposed to help with nerve issues, and it has helped a little, but I'd say it's not keeping up.  I can take 3 pills a day, but there's a big warning on the bottle about it causing dizziness and fatigue, and I should be careful.  I take it at night and at breakfast.  So if I go up to the full dose and can't function during the day for the dizziness and fatigue?  What's the point?  That doesn't keep me as independent as possible.  I'm heading up to Huntsman Wednesday to talk to a pharmacist about all of this.  I need itching relief!

Some of the kids from the Sedona retreat, at the Grand Canyon!