Chemo Fatigue

My most recent chemo was last Friday.  I went by myself because Mat was back at school and I never got organized enough to ask someone to come with me.  Sometimes I like going by myself because they give me Benadryl through the IV to help with the reaction I have to Perjeta.  I get loopy and tired real fast!  I feel bad zonking out on whoever is with me!  Before my chemo three weeks ago, Dr. Prystas suggested we cut out the Perjeta but I hesitated because what we're doing is working!  Everything is stable!  I didn't feel comfortable cutting one out, despite the constant itching.

Late last night I sent her a message telling her I couldn't handle the itching anymore.  I'm going crazy!  I've always tried to look at the itching as "better" than chronic pain, so I just tried to suck it up.  But I'm telling you, I can't do it anymore.  I talked to her today, she said we can expect similar results cutting out Perjeta and staying on just Herceptin.  Here's to hoping that's true!

I kind of sighed on Friday when they escorted me to my recliner ... again.  It gets old, ya know?  Knowing that chemo will, literally, never end for me.  I'm approaching the one year anniversary of my stage 4 diagnosis and that's a little unnerving too.  There's so much emotion tied to that day.   Being thrust into the flurry of diagnostic tests, the biopsy, scans, and waiting endlessly for results and a game plan.   My life will never be like it was before.  Even though it's almost been a year, I find myself having to "deal" with that sometimes.

First Day of 4th grade!