My Quarterly Panic Attack

I'm grateful I didn't have much time to think about this scan.  We were so distracted on the trip with fun stuff!  I had in the back of my head that I needed to check my schedule to see what was happening at Huntsman this week.  Monday I had chemo, my friend Geri came with me.  I don't know why an infusion that takes a total of 1 ½ hours takes 4.  We sit and wait and sit and wait some more.  For pharmacy, for the nurse to access the port, for pharmacy again, etc. etc.

Today I had my scan and an echocardiogram.  I picked up my contrast and started drinking while waiting for the echo.  The contrast has to be sipped over 1 ½ hours--it's no small amount.  It's so disgusting and gives me such gastro distress after.  It's not a day (or night) I look forward to.  I hope I will hear something tomorrow.  My nurse will hear from me tomorrow afternoon if she doesn't call me before that.  The anticipation is agonizing.

On Friday I get my hormone shots and meet with Dr. Prystas. I pray we have happy, positive things to talk about!

Mat and I have been talking about getting into a house again (we live in a condo right now).  I have this intense need to have a garden to work in.  I want to create a beautiful space for me and my family.  I also have an intense need to have a home where we can invite people over, where my kids feel comfortable inviting their friends over.  I want the kids to want to hang out at our house.  So, we are working on that.  All we need now is the house!