Sunday, December 27, 2009

Today has been an emotional day.  I didn't sleep last night, I just couldn't get comfortable.  I'm trying to be careful about the incisions, even when I'm sleeping, so I curl up and then everything starts to ache.  I just want to stretch out!  I was planning on some church today, but I just couldn't do it.  Good news is that next week we move to 11:00 (the perfect time!), so even if I don't sleep well, I should be able to get there!

Everyone tells me that the rollercoaster is normal.  I'll have up days and I'll have down days.  I just have so many questions still that don't get answered until the 7th!  I'm overwhelmed with the amount of help I / we will need to get through this.  And there is some fear of the still unknown treatments and what they will do to me--I know!  I'll be over the fear after a good night's sleep!  Please continue to pray for us.  I don't think I've ever done anything quite this hard before.  I've certainly had trials, but this is the grand daddy!  I am so grateful for constant well wishes and prayers and for all of you that have put our names in the temple.  I know that our names are in temples from Anchorage to Washington DC, and everywhere in between (and likely farther than that).  It's totally amazing and I am so grateful!  THANKS so much for your love and support!  Here's to hoping for a better nights sleep!

2 comments:

Christy said...

I can't believe I am just finding out about all of your struggles. November 20th. WOW! I even saw you at Prelude to Christmas and was completely clueless. You are blessed to have such amazing people surrounding and supporting you. JUST KEEP FIGHTING! Hope you get a good nights sleep tonight.

Kim said...

Prelude was the night before surgery. I came but didn't end up staying because I got a call from Mat's mom. They were going to be with the kids all day Monday, but his dad was in the ER that night, so I had to go figure out who could watch the kids all day and night on Monday. I was so bummed to miss it, but we worked out the kid thing. : )