Day 3

I've felt about the same today as yesterday, "doable" nausea, fatigue, and bone aches.  As long as I eat every 3 hours, the nausea is managable.  The problem I have is what to eat every three hours because nothing sounds good.  I'm done with crackers, cheese sticks and toast.  If anyone has any good ideas for something I can get that is fast, portable and not too sweet, I'd love some ideas!  I went to the gym tonight and pushed too hard, so I feel really awful right now.  I tried to run yesterday and today, but when I get my heart rate up, it feels like my heart will beat right out of my chest.  It is so discouraging because that kind of intensity is what really keeps me sane.  I like pushing myself, but if I have a heart attack, it's probably not worth it.  : )   One of the side effects of the Adriamycin is heart problems, so I guess I'll back off.  ARGH!!!

I had some great helpers today.  Natasha brought her daughter and she played with the Brooklyn so cute!  Natasha did the laundry, among other things, which I am so grateful for!  I was able to go to the Atonement class we have in our ward on Wednesdays, it is always excellent and I am grateful when I can make it (thanks Annette!).  I got a visit this afternoon from my friend Renee. We met a couple of weeks ago at a dinner for the Young Survivor Sisters, a support group for breast cancer survivors diagnosed under the age of 45. She has the same beautiful hair color as me, and she gave me her custom-made wig which is layered and looks an awful lot like my hair did a few days ago. THANKS Renee!  Amy came this afternoon and stayed so I could go to school and do RadKIDS with the 3rd graders and drive the kids home after school.  I was so exhausted after I came home, I took a two hour nap.  Thanks Amy for being willing to come and help out!  Also, thanks to our friend Cari brought over an awesome dinner tonight.  We've had so much food brought in since this adventure began, I am so grateful to all of you!  I'm not even sure I know who all of you are, but we count you among our blessings!  And one more person to thank today, Laurie.  She is the daughter of a great couple in our ward, and she happens to be trained in medical assisting.  She is coming everyday at 11:30 to give me my Neupogen shots (gives my bone marrow a boost, helps the blood counts recover quickly).  I am grateful that I don't have to do that myself!  I've seen enough needles and felt enough pokes the last two months that I have no desire to inflict that pain on myself!  So, we are very grateful today to have so much love and support coming our way!  I see the tender mercies everyday and we are changed forever by them.  We love you!